So, take a seat, because I’m about to shock you.
I’m a soon-to-be twenty-five year old woman who loves Supernatural, Firefly, and Lord of the Rings, but has never seen Buffy the Vampire Slayer. *cue gasps*
You guys, I don’t know why I resisted for so long. It’s everything I want in a show and Giles is inner-me. Buffy is a tough, compassionate, feminine heroine who kicks ass and also cries and feels things. Willow is a quiet, enigmatic, brilliant friend and heroine in her own right and Xander is the mother-effing best. Don’t get me started on Spike (hint: I love him).
But aside from these obvious statements, you’re probably thinking, “Okay, well, duh. But what is your point?”
You see, Buffy the Vampire Slayer has actually helped with my insomnia. *cue gasps and disbelief*
I have struggled for years with insomnia, sleep hallucinations (shout-out to my old pal OCD for that one), stress dreams, and anxiety that seems to want to show up the most in the evening. But a med change and a show change has drastically helped these things.
The meds have actually helped the insomnia. Everything else has eased up on me because of Buffy.
By watching a show where good triumphs over evil, girls kick major ass, and problems get smashed, I go to bed with a strong, in-control, and brave brain. I don’t put up with bullshit in dreams. If I wake up and think I see something, I summon up all the courage I need and embrace it, thereby taking away the power of the obsessions and getting rid of the hallucination. Basically, I just go into my evening believing that I can and will accomplish everything I want to and need to face.
So, I guess the question is this: what gives you power over your insomnia?